The last few weeks have been very trying on Phil. For me, it is hard to watch. He has always been the positive, optimistic, full-of-faith one. And it is really hard for me to see the most wonderful person in the world struggling and fighting with all he has just to maintain.
The other night at dinner, he was discussing some "not so fair" situations within the company he works for. As he was talking, he was getting more and more aggravated at the situation he is currently in. He worked his tail off for 10 years as an Assistant Manager in hopes of getting a smooth running, profitable store. Instead, he got a store that has a lot of problems and is not very profitable. He is currently working more now than he was his last couple years as an Assistant....that, was not the plan! Anyway, as he was getting more frustrated with each word, Logan says, "But Dad, we are here because this is where God wants us!" Oooops!! Out of the mouths of our children comes wisdom. So, early the other morning I realized something:
Everything I prayed for came to pass. I prayed that our move would not hinder our children or the people they are becoming. I prayed for a place we could enjoy as a family. I prayed for a church that would love my children and that my children could grow and thrive in. And, God knew neither Phil nor I could just sit on a pew and do nothing. So, as a bonus, He threw in a trust and confidence in our Pastors to allow us to be working in areas of ministry already. So, if I sit and complain, I am no different than the Israelites when God miraculously brought them out of Egypt.
Regardless of all the crazy "outside" stuff going on, we are where we belong. It is time to stop talking and whining about the unfairness of the company, why they do what they do, the Area Manager that just doesn't understand the situation, the quarterly meetings trying to defend your stores current economic position. It is time to stop worrying about the people that you thought would never forget you but somehow have, the lack of calls or messages when you really need some encouragement, the temptation to give up and move back to familiar territory.
My blessings are so abundant....I have a husband that adores me. Three healthy, happy, well-adjusted children that make me smile at the little people they are becoming. Precious friends that I can call on and they give me the wisdom and encouragement I need. An awesome church that feeds our hearts and souls. New friends that I really enjoy being with.
Life is crazy and and it rains on the just and the unjust alike. My prayer is that we remain on the "just" side. How sad my life would be if I allowed myself to move to the "unjust" side because of life's circumstances. So, in all things, I will be thankful!